my adolescent life

word-less

2010-10-24T18:47:00.002+01:00

TRUST TAKES A LONG TIME TO BUILD,

BUT SECONDS TO DESTROY

(Aimi Ishak,2010)

imeyk, pinjam!!. hehe.

xxx

time for reflection! :)

2010-10-24T18:08:00.005+01:00

Berbuat baik kepada sesama manusia di perintahkan oleh Allah

dalam Al-Quran Surah LUQMAN (31) ayat 17-19:

يَا بُنَيَّ أَقِمِ الصَّلَاةَ وَأْمُرْ بِالْمَعْرُوفِ وَانْهَ عَنِ الْمُنْكَرِ وَاصْبِرْ عَلَى مَا أَصَابَكَ إِنَّ ذَلِكَ مِنْ عَزْمِ الْأُمُورِ (17) وَلَا تُصَعِّرْ خَدَّكَ لِلنَّاسِ وَلَا تَمْشِ فِي الْأَرْضِ مَرَحًا إِنَّ اللَّهَ لَا يُحِبُّ كُلَّ مُخْتَالٍ فَخُورٍ (18) وَاقْصِدْ فِي مَشْيِكَ وَاغْضُضْ مِنْ صَوْتِكَ إِنَّ أَنْكَرَ الْأَصْوَاتِ لَصَوْتُ الْحَمِيرِ (19)

Hai anakku, dirikanlah solat dan suruhlah (manusia) mengerjakan yang baik dan cegahlah (mereka) dari perbuatan yang mungkar dan bersabarlah terhadap apa yang menimpa kamu. Sesungguhnya yang demikian itu termasuk hal-hal yang diwajibkan (oleh Allah). Dan janganlah kamu memalingkan mukamu dari manusia (kerana sombong) dan janganlah kamu berjalan di muka bumi dengan angkuh. Sesungguhnya Allah tidak menyukai orang-orang yang sombong lagi membanggakan diri. Dan sederhanalah kamu dalam berjalan dan lunakkanlah suaramu. Sesungguhnya seburuk-buruk suara ialah suara keldai.

Related to current state, look what I've found. I have full-heartedly accept all the blames and trying hard to be normal again. A piece of meaningful surah in Al-Quran!. It is totally a reminder to myself and maybe just to share with anyone who reads my blog. :)

There are many obstacles waiting for me throughout this whole year. I seek guidance from Allah SWT, the only one who created us. I need more courage and hopefully I'll become stronger day by day.

*AMIN*

xxx

wishlist

2010-06-29T09:08:00.003+01:00

warning : do not get me wrong.i have no intention at all to be so vain or whatsoever!!!

i'm turning 21 in a few days time.what a huge number huh??.after 21 years of living,there are nothing much that i can really proud of myself.only i know how messed up i am deep inside.but i'm still grateful for who am i today.i know myself is one of the hell confused soul.i can be very indecisive at times.i'm easily influenced,i don't think far before acting.but the worst is i easily trusted people-their words especially,followed by action.i get jealous so effing easy,no kidding.i'm very possessive with my belongings-whatever mine is mine,don't anyone dare to take my things away from me.however,the main thing that make me worried is i always aim too high.hence i'm very scared if i'll get nothing in return.besides that,i'm choosy,cruel,selfish,greedy,lazy and dishonest.i know i'm not supposed to say all the bad things about myself.the only reason is i really really wish to wipe away all these bad things i've got in me.by the time i'm 21,i'm legal to do things.my mum said at the age of 21,we're no longer our parents' big responsibility.that sounded really scary to me.

anyhowwwwww,i'm so excited for this weekend.after a month i got back,i'm gonna see my girls!!!!!!.i really look forward to celebrate my big 21 with them all.and the next day will be wind orchestra finals,we so gonna rock picc again baby!!.go tkc rhythmsquad go!!.make us proud again kids!.since i hardly get myself to kl,i hope to see as many of my friends as possible.but i know,its kinda hard to gather everyone in a hurry and plus i don't really have much time to spend.till now,toodles!.

xxx

p/s: i should be updating malsoc blog instead of mine.haha.i'll do it now. (: both blogs should be treated equally from now on.

moonstruck

2010-06-20T15:51:00.003+01:00

now that i should start to worry--

*first year results are coming out pretty soon.

*dangerous fact about myself that i'd never ever let my enemy wins no matter what.

*i'm getting confused day by day.this is disastrous i tell you.

*playing with the fire again and again,screw me.

*i have too many secrets for now. to make it worse, my diary doesn't play any role since i couldn't find time to really write in it.

*i miss my newcastle family too!.

*scared that i start to get tired with my effing games.

*my plans are getting haywired.

nevertheless,i still love my summer holidays.

xxx

why the STUPIDITY?

2010-06-12T19:20:00.007+01:00

1. Why do supermarkets make the sick walk all the way to the back of the store to get their prescriptions while healthy people can buy cigarettes at the front.

2. Why do people order double cheeseburgers, large fries, and a diet coke.

3. Why do banks leave vault doors open and then chain the pens to the counters.

4. Why do we leave cars worth thousands of rands in our driveways and put our useless junk in the garage.

EVER WONDER ...

5. Why the sun lightens our hair, but darkens our skin?

6. Why can't women put on mascara with their mouth closed?

7. Why don't you ever see the headline 'Psychic Wins Lottery'?

8. Why is 'abbreviated' such a long word?

9. Why is it that doctors call what they do 'practice'?

10. Why is lemon juice made with artificial flavouring, and dishwashing liquid made with real lemons?

11. Why is the man who invests all your money called a broker?

12. Why is the time of day with the slowest traffic called rush hour?

13. Why isn't there mouse-flavored cat food?

14. Why didn't Noah swat those two mosquitoes?

15. Why do they sterilize the needle for lethal injections?

16. You know that indestructible black box that is used on airplanes? Why don't they make the whole plane out of that stuff?!

17. Why don't sheep shrink when it rains?!

18. Why are they called apartments when they are all stuck together?

19. If flying is so safe,why do they call the airport the terminal?

answer these please pretty please.an email my dad forwarded to me from his mcoba group. ;)

i couldn't really find the answers yet.

xxx

p/s: watching WC England vs USA. GO ENGLAND GO!!

fresh air

2010-06-10T19:45:00.003+01:00

the safest place on earth ever is by our family's side.i am so glad to be home again after approximately 10months. :D :D :D

today is my mum's birthday!!.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAK!!

she has just turned 43 two hours ago.i love her very much.being away from her since i was 13 enough to make me love her more and more.and hence,i shall appreciate every single second i have around her.she is my second priority after Allah.everything i do,i would love to do it for her.may Allah bless you day by day mum.you're the best gift i EVER got.me,ngah and adam are lucky to have you.we adore your spirit, strength, popularity and everything in short.we might not be able to give you all the expensive presents like habib,murano,vacation etc just yet.but we would love to give them as soon as possible.you deserve to have all the happiness in this world.you've raised three of us up with full of love and sacrifice and we will never ever forget that.

you're our wonderful and awesome SUPER MUM!!.

xxx

p/s : i have a lot more to blog about.they are on their way!!. ;)

i-smile

2010-06-03T23:38:00.003+01:00

THE WORLD IS

WAY SIMPLER

THAN WE THOUGHT.

if you're having your hard times,do remember that its not the end of the world.there must be reasons for everything that happened.so,lets keep going.HE knows whats best for us.

i'm coming home in 2days time.yayyy~finally done with my first year final examination and courseworks!!.welcome to my life dearie 4months holidays.

i'm so gonna love it. :D

xxx

p/s : thank you~the quotes give me a lil bit of motivation without i actually realized it. ;)

esprit de corps

2010-06-02T15:57:00.004+01:00

Remember those days

Remember our laughs, tears and faith

As we shared

All the love that we promised shall remain

You're the light I see

Shining in front of me

Blessing faith, to gain and to succeed

Through the times we strive together learning

Reaching out for our dreams

Make a bridge between these love and memories

To the sky above we'll reach

Together through thick and thin

Together we fight away our fears

For our victory

Which leads to our destiny

Whenever we face the world

I'll come back to you just wait and see

Esprit de corps shall be

Friends for eternity

Forever knights will be

As time passes by

Reminiscing the moments we've spent

On the shelves

Frozen image of us standing hand in hand

You're the light I see

Shining in front of me

As we lead our way

Of how life should be

And all that we stand for

Stay shining in our eyes

Again we're united

As the golden ribbon ties

We'll make it through

Can we still recall?

Will we still preserve these years?

As friendship remains in our hearts

FOREVER WILL BE

I just realized that its 0206 today.so this post is dedicated for my loved ones.the girls, the lovely, caring, sweet, beauties with brains, and too much to describe how my girls are.five years in tunku kurshiah college is the priceless moment in my life.it was the most wonderful thing that happened to me.i love you girls so much!!.sahabat dunia akhirat okay!!.

LOVE, HUGS AND KISSES!.

xxx

p/s : let's not stop praying for our brothers and sisters in gaza.

devastation

2010-05-31T21:45:00.004+01:00

i woke up this morning with frustration and too shocked with the latest news. the Israeli government has been so heartlessly attacked the humanitarian convoy. I'm very disheartened by this whole thing.

we're muslims purely want to send aid.and the zionis cannot claim that they we attacked by the muslims.we didn't have any intention of sending weapons at all.the convoy was just protecting food and medical aid.

ya Allah, please help us in this dark hour. please be with us ya Allah.

please protect us ya Allah especially the people in gaza and the missionaries to help them.

we have no other place to count on beside ALLAH THE ALMIGHTY.

let's everyone pray in our hearts non-stop, pray for their safety and may them will be stronger in facing this. All Muslims shall unite against Israeli. AMIN.

xxx

reflection

2010-05-28T17:54:00.003+01:00

Having a place to go,

is a home.

Having someone to love,

is a family.

Having both,

is a blessing.

xxx

p/s : finding a corner for me to ponder.

COUNTDOWN

2010-05-26T22:09:00.003+01:00

ten

nine

eight

seven

six

five

four

THREE

TWO

ONE!!!!

only ten days left.

i'm effing excited and thrilled.

*smiling from ear to ear*

xxx

p/s : still gotta sit for materials paper tomorrow.grrr~

its finally summer baby!!!

2010-05-22T22:29:00.006+01:00

hello.frustrating spring is over.yayy~no more cold weather.i just love summer!!.no more thick clothes, jackets, glove, boots and all.well,summer makes everyone happy.even in my hostel,all the local people seemed so excited.if possible,they would want to stay under the sun all the time, that includes their all day sunbathing.to a certain extend, its not a very nice view to see.nevertheless,i could consider them as jakun too.haha.i shall invite everyone to come back with me and experience all year extreme summer with us in malaysia.

exactly 14days from now,i'll be home.

seriously couldnt wait to see my loved ones. :D

however, not all good things are easy to get.i'm having my first year final examination at the moment, finished with 3papers but 4more to go.its a very long journey for me.anyway, i just screwed up mechanics paper.blame the saturday examination (that doesnt make any sense though!!) haha.sometimes its really scary to think on how fast the time passes by, seriously!!.

xxx

p/s : dont forget my short glasses okayy gee!!. ;)

a morning sketch

2010-05-04T13:02:00.007+01:00

it has became my weekly routine to wake up slightly earlier on tuesdays in order to attend 9am electrical engineering class held in the herschel building which is much far away.ohh well,an interesting incident happened this morning.our cute yet passionate lecturer dr david atkinson was teaching in front,trying to finish up the syllabus by today.suddenly someone caught his attention, a guy (mr B) sitting at the very front row.dr atkinson stared at him for about one minute before he actually paused our lecture.

dr A : i wonder what you've been doing?

mr B : listening to my ipod.

dr A : (speechless) well,i appreciate your honesty. this is the very first time in my life a student answers something like that to me.i could understand if you're sitting at the very back of the lecture hall but you're not.so what should i do with you now?

everyone kept their mouth shut.then dr A continued, "if this happens again,off you go from my class."

and the lecture hall became complete silent.note that about half of us started laughing and we were trying hard to hide it.

then the lesson was back to normal.however after 5 minutes,
"i still cant get over it!!!!!", said dr A.

he walked around and asked us,
"is it normal for students nowadays listening to their freaking ipods in classes? raise your hands if you think that it is totally fine. "

there were quite a number of hands were put up showing that they agreed with mr B action.
haha.so,thats the beginning of my day.i have a few more assignments to finish up plus a plenty of workload for exam preparation,13more days!!.i'm screwed~ :s

xxx

p/s : i found myself twittering??.lol.

transition elements from april to may

2010-05-01T18:07:00.013+01:00

hello.it has been a while since i get myself updated,almost a month right?.well,easter break was over past 2weeks.classes started as usual.my biological clock had to change and get itself back on track,9am classes every morning.reality check,holidays cant be forever.roughly,i had so much fun in april.the pic above is taken during our amsterdam trip.the keukenhof tulips garden is awesome!!.the flowers have bloomed well and the views there were really nice.last minute trip was not cheap though,all of us finished at least 300euros i guess.however the trip worth our money; the return journey for cruise,not so expensive but comfortable hotel,satisfying tram service and so on.luckily we chose to travel by cruise in stead of flight.i cant imagine me stuck for an extra a few days due the volcanic eruption.i wouldnt elaborate more on the trip,it will take me a few entries for that. :)

next when we got ourselves back in newcastle,malaysian night was waiting for us.after about 2months practicing for our performances,our hard work paid off.it was another great night even though i am aware of the fact that many people are simply against malaysian night.what to do,its a free world after all.its better that we mind our own businesses i think.anyhow,the not so nice thing about msian night is that was the last msian night for our 3rd year seniors.nadya,helmi,faiz,fariza and a few others are going back soon.i'm so gonna miss them esp during practices.they made the surrounding alive with their jokes and laughter.

above is another picture during malaysian night.misc sponsored student from first,2nd and 3rd year (plus nady sesat!!).the only picture we manage to get.

and another event for nothumbria university malaysian ball.last minute request for performance was a success to me.ketipang payung by nady,nawal,iylia,hanis,mimi and myself.

basically,those are the things happened in april.not to forget,imeyk's stay for the whole one month.she was being too much ODC (obsessive compulsive disorder) staying with me.i miss her already.i'm pretty sure she would read this.only one message for her,be strong honey!!.you know me and the rest of your so called family here love you right?.
take good care of yourself okayy in your beloved douper hall. :p

so now,serious matter.semester 2 exam is coming in 16days time!!!.lets help me counting the days.7 papers await me,oh no!!!.i'm so gotta work extra hard this time. :S :S :S

xxx

out of sort

2010-04-02T03:06:00.004+01:00

it has been two weeks since my easter holidays started.the first week was totally bored but i was lucky to have a few friends who kept me accompanied.but the second week was really a blast.i'm loving the fact that imeyk is staying over with me for her whole easter break.really glad to have her around (i wish zati and boe are here too btw!!) .in spite of the chaos i faced,i've made up my mind.however,i'm still muddled with the way i chose.i am terribly a self-indulgent person i can tell.

wittt wittt~amsterdam trip is a week away from now.i'm really excited for that. :D

xxx

p/s: happy birthday friend.

i'm not what i think i am

2010-03-31T21:50:00.004+01:00

well,i've been crazily confused with things around me.
everything seemed to be jumbled up and
that didnt help me to find a solid conclusion.

what do i really want?

what do i want at the moment?

why cant i make a correct desicion?

why do i find so hard to solve something?

whatever it is,i dislike myself for not being able to make a right decision.
and to make it worse,i do regret after making my own decision.
what the hell is wrong with me.
is that mean that i havent grow up just yet?.ohh crap~

xxx

p/s: i'm loving my holidays. :)

for you honey

2010-03-26T15:01:00.005Z

today is her birthday.but she's not here with me.i didnt get the chance to celebrate her birthday at 12am 26th march uk time.i just hope wherever she is,she would have a blast on here day.

so the guys in london,take note.i'm gonna kick you guys if she's not happy being there!!. >:) faster come back,all of us miss you (jangan perasan lebih2!!) .

anyhow,to my dearest best friend and the only university mate i have from my alma mater, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!.

you're now considered as a big girl,21??!.haha.thats old enough for us.

may Allah helps you with your daily lives.may things get easier for yourself; studies,family,relationship maybe and practically everything.

i'll pray for your success herein and hereafter.

there were too many things we've gone through since we're 13. studies,band,orchest,warden,outings,a levels,movies,hangouts, and too much to mention.

for any little or big fight we had,i'm very sorry.

i'm aware that at times i could really hurt you.though i didnt mean too,shits happen right?.

i'm very sorry again.whatever happened in the past or coming in the future,

i just want you to know that you're a wonderful friend of mine.

i'm really glad that our path crossed.

i love you very much NURUL NADIA MAHFUDZ. :))

xxx

p/s : i miss my other bestfriends too.

the gump family

2010-03-22T21:56:00.004Z

Mama always said life was like a box of chocolates,
never know what you're gonna get.
-Forrest Gump

Don't let anybody tell you that they're better than you.
If God intended everyone to be the same,
he'd have given us all braces on our legs.
-Mrs Gump

p/s : i've diverted my mind to something else.

its only a fairy tale after all

2010-03-20T12:28:00.005Z

finally,its holiday already!!.i'm loving the fact that i dont have to wake up early for classes every morning.BUT i cant imagine how boring this whole month would be.basically,we dont have any plans yet for our easter holidays.it might be too late though to purchase any airlines ticket to get out off newcastle.the price could reach as high as 100++ pounds.anyways,imeyk and galak are coming this saturday,which is 6 more days to go and i shall consider that is quite a long period for me.moffat has gone to london for 10days and nady will be back only after this 30th.no no no!!!!.my flatmates are also wouldnt be around.julia,kitty,tess,jen and laura surely go back every time holidays.and for that reason,i envy them a lot.

to make myself feel better,in spite of the boredom that i'm facing there a still a number of things could be done.1st,never ending assignments--mechanics and statistics.to add that up,may be a lil bit of studying.haha.2nd,movie marathon.3rd,cover as many series as i can.4th,skyping with people all over the world which means catch up with the girls and my family.5th,long and long and long hours of sleep.fyi,i've started this early today.i woke up only to pray.haha.craziness~

xxx

p/s: my p/s for this post is the title above. :p

oh no.

2010-03-19T02:16:00.003Z

its very true when people said
"all good things come to an end."

the ending is just around the corner while
the whole thing has just actually started.

anyways,holiday starts today!!.yuhuuuu~
i'm gonna be freeeeeeeeeee and i'll fly like a bird. :)

xxx

p/s: ikan keli comel.

2 more days

2010-03-17T11:00:00.005Z

blankly staring at the second coursework
without any idea on how to even start it.
oh linear interpolation,oh labview!!.
2 more days before the submission date.
screw me!! :S

xxx

p/s: excited state.haha.

family

2010-03-16T20:16:00.006Z

i miss my family so badly.
mum,dad,ngah,adam and myself.
five of us are just like the simpsons family. :D
homesick strikes come quite often to me,especially lately.

however, ester holidays coming pretty soon.yay~
i'll get one month of holidays.isn't that really nice?.and the best part is imeyk will be staying over for the whole one month.i told everyone before,there are nothing much in newcastle besides the super fun people here.haha.
self claimed!!.

xxx

p/s : indahnya hari ini.lol~

missing pieces

2010-03-16T02:16:00.001Z

honestly,i kinda miss blogging even though most of the times i wrote craps.and for that reason,here comes a whole new one.for some reasons i've decided to delete my old one.

welcome back to myself.

xxx